Bush – Swallowed (lyrics)

Warm sun, feed me up and I’m leery loaded up
Loathing for a change
And I slip some boil away
Swallowed followed, heavy about everything
But my love

Swallowed sorrowed
I’m with everyone and yet not just wanted
to be myself
hey you said that you would love to try some
hey you said you would love to die some
in the middle of a worm on a fish hook
you’re the wave you’re the wave you’re the wave

Swallowed borrowed
Heavy about everything
But my love
Swallowed hollowed
Sharp about everyone
But yourself
Swallowed oh no
I’m with every one and yet not
I’m with everyone and you’re not
I’m on everyone and yet
Piss on self-esteem
Forward Busted knee
Sick head
Blackened lungs
And I’m a simple selfish son

Swallowed followed
Swallowed oh no
I’m with everyone and yet not
Got to get away from here
I miss the one that I love a lot
I miss the one that I love a lot

Exactly how I feel…

massive hole through me

Writing something of worth isn’t something I have within me this morning. I am feeling weak, not physically but something isn’t alive within me. I noticed that I’m feeling down based on the strangest things. I feel defeated by the weight goals ahead of me. I don’t feel strong. I feel like someone shot a massive hole through me, but I don’t see the bleeding. It is just empty. It’s not quite depressed, and not quite ok. It’s EMPTY.

My other friend looked amazing in a bathing suit – I felt happy, jealous, sad
I saw old pictures of myself – I felt sick, wanted to run away, sad
My friend has a new love intrest – I felt happy, jealous, sad
I want to hike through the local trails – I feel weak, out of shape, sad
I saw Mehul had removed our “relationship status” – I felt empty, sad
I miss love’s friendship and affection. I wish I had never loved intensely so I wouldn’t know what I am missing. I feel HOLLOW!

WHAT is going ON?

I am going to work out this morning and see if it helps.

I am going to push myself today, and WORKOUT HARD!!!

did you get a copy of the schedule?

Did you get a dose of niceness? Cause you need one. Lighten up. life will still go on… Sorry you feel the need to mock too b. It comes back to you.

This work moment reminded me of the scene from Office Space.

The clip

sitting in subway pondering life and mobile blogging

I was browsing through dozens of websites over the past few weeks and this one is the most friendly with my non-pda phone. I don’t have the best phone on the market, however due to this nifty site and sprint I am up and blogging at the speed of life.

School Starts Soon

Back to classes, a new semester begins for me at VSU. I also start work soon at new  job.

I’m excited. This is what I’ve been preparing myself to do.

I know that the toughest part will be the mornings.

I miss M.

My Diva Author Icon

My Diva Author Icon. It looks a bit like me, eh?

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